"The best thing any of us can do to ensure a good world is create one around us. This sounds so simple and obvious but it isn't..."
So says my friend Liz today, in a Facebook post. It struck me, today of all days, partly because my friend Mandy, who helps write the blog Food From Here , came over to my messy home and gave me a gardening consult in a my yard overflowing with tall grass and little tykes toys. Her advice, coupled with sincere kindness, was so simple and forgiving that it gave me so much hope. Hope in a hopeless time.
Somewhere along the line, I forgot to be thankful. I forgot that even when you are longing for another life, you have to be thankful for the one you have. And if it's not happy, do whatever you can to change it. Forge ahead. Stop wallowing in your desire for change.
Once upon a time, there was a person I wanted to be. There were parts I had to give up, maybe forever. Other parts I had to put on hold until I grew enough to understand how to incorporate them. I can see I am still becoming that person...she's not dead. Maybe she was just sleeping until she had enough rest. I'm ready to rise up and do the things I wanted to do. Simple things that I was too overwhelmed to even think of. Silly things. A garden. A clothesline. Recycling. Cooking more from scratch. Being creative in the kitchen. Sewing. Crafts. Just because I work, and my kids are public school converts, doesn't mean I have to give up every dream of "the simple life."
There are things I want for the future, but I can't keep running in place waiting for things to happen. I've been doing that for far too long. Praying and asking and it's still time to wait. That old saying "Bloom where you are planted" seems to apply. I don't think this patch of land is my dirt forever. I prefer to think of myself as a potted plant, and someday I'll find my own garden where I can lay down some deep roots. But in the meantime, I'm not going to stay nestled in this pod, dry and dead. I've got to push out some green shoots and make this plain old terra cotta beautiful.